Now:

 Looking back over that last seven months I have been struck by the fact that I have not experienced fear. There are many scriptures that tell us not to be afraid. Here are a few: http://www.geocities.com/chrispelczar/bib.fear.html  

I have been clinging to scriptures like these for years and especially now during this battle. God has been so faithful to keep His promises and has carried me through all that has happened fearless. I haven’t worried about the procedures, the treatments, the surgeries, and that says a lot since I have been a serious worrier most of my life.  

I think learning to trust God is a process, taking little baby steps, and then taking more. He rewards our attempts, our faith and trust in Him.

Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety upon Him, because He cares for you. (1 Peter 5:6-7)

THEN: 

I learned I had MS in 2002. That’s another story. But the most important thing I learned, quickly, was to Trust God, take my worries and concerns to Him and let Him take control of the solutions. As with the current situation, He did and in many miraculous ways.  

There was a problem with insurance coverage since I temporarily went to live with my daughter in another state. The insurance company had assured me that I could take my coverage with me for a minimum of three months under special ‘visiting’ arrangements. So I confidently moved. 

During my first hospitalization I received a phone call saying that they wouldn’t cover me, that I should never have been told I could move. This caused a flurry of phone calls, and discussions. I was urged to get a lawyer.  

Then I remembered the scriptures someone had given me. I kept repeating them and decided I could trust God in this matter. I turned it all over to Him to work out according to His will. My phrase of faith became: ‘God will work this out.’ And He did.  

I received another phone call from someone who apologized and said that they had made a mistake in telling me I would have coverage, but that they would cover my expenses according to the plan, anyway.  I considered that a direct intervention on God’s part.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. (Philippians 4:6)